Fletch - Exhausted. That's the perfect word for the way Meg and I feel lately. For me, I am loosing all desire for working at Appalachian Outdoors. I am grateful for the discounts, connections, and experiences that are a result from that shop, but the work itself can too often be mindless, repetitive, zombie work. The end of the shift always seems like a million years off. When the day is finally over I leave exhausted, not because I exerted myself in any great way, but because I am so drained from having to do meaningless things. Don't get me wrong, App House can be a very enjoyable place, but this past week or two has been a cruel form of torture.
Meg also is exhausted. She puts in ridiculously long hours preparing lessons, entering grades, and filling her mind with all things pertaining to civics. Then, after she teaches the lessons, she is dealt a cruel blow. Sometimes one of her observers will say they dislike the lesson, and the other praises it. What should one do with such contradicting advice? Other times she will get ambiguous reasons why the lesson is not planned better or delivered more effectively. To add to this, the reasons given usually contradict something she was told to do earlier, or worse, she was never told about. It's frustrating for me to see, I would love to tell these people a few choice words.
Alas, there is more here than meets the eye. Through these experiences, Meg often comes home feeling defeated. This can only be the work of the enemy. These are attempts to discourage her, and render her ineffective. Well, to her credit and Christ working in her, she has not allowed this to happen...although tempting at times. She presses on with the end result in her mind. I love this woman. She is so beautiful and noble. What can I say other that this? I can't wait to make her my wife.
Although life seems defeating, exhausting, and meaningless at times, Christ still has His hand on us. So we will perservere, we will make it to that day where we can fall, in a heap, in Christs arms. And being utterly spend from the challenges of this life, hear the words, "Well done good and faithful servant. Welcome home Fletcher!" Finally, enter into the tangible glory of God with the hosts of Heaven in one voice roar, HOLY HOLY HOLY IS THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY.
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Hey you two:) I read your words and experience a multitude of emotions. Laughter, as I picture each of you truly saying certain parts of your blog, especially Megs in her "speak". Joy, as I see God working in you soooo much! and to see things finally coming together for you both as you take the next step toward marriage. Encouragement, your relationships with God have been such an encouragement and example to me. It is amazing to see God speaking to you and teaching you so many of the same things He is to me. Its sooo comforting to know I have a brother and sister to fight along side, and to fellowship with! Tears are brought to my eyes when I see your love for each other exude in every word and reference to each other, a true love that is just a glimpse of how Jesus loves.... My heart was overflowing with those thoughts, and I felt like I should share that with you. I cant wait to see what is yet to come! Carry on!
PS - I love that picture of you two!
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